A Little Process

"A little hormonal today," - did you ever have that feeling?  Well, that is how I am feeling today, so I am going to work it out in this post!  What fun for you!  Step by ugly-glorious step!

 ~Is anything (anything as in events, situations, relationships) really wrong? No.
~Is anything drastically different from yesterday? No.
~Is anything sorta different than yesterday? No.
~So, house hasn't burned down?  No one has attacked me? Relationships are intact? Nothing is really different from yesterday when everything seemed fine? No major uprisings have occurred?

Okay, if the answer to all of this is no - in reality, not in feelings, it is safe to assume that hormones have come out to play like wild monkeys that have been kept in small cages for one month and then suddenly set free in a jungle.

Praise God - He is bigger than hormones!  So let's get on with the truth.  See, you can't just try to empty out those hormones (read 'hormones' as the feelings that hormones bring - doubt, anger, frustration, irritability, fear, confusion, hurt).  If you do try to just 'overcome' them, or ignore them, or avoid them, or wish them away, you are really attempting to empty a place that those feelings had been filling.  But that is much like the greek god Sisyphus - if you are trying to roll a rock up a hill, you are fighting the whole time - because it just wants to roll back down to its resting place.   So you can try to push the hormonal feelings up the hill, but if you don't fill that hole, guess what is going to keep rolling right back to its resting place????

Time to stop fighting, fill that hole and change that resting place! Fill it with love and truth!

~God is always good, and He always loves me.

       Thank you Father for your great, overwhelming, all-encompassing, everlasting love.  Thank you for always watching over me.  Thank you for knowing me - knowing my heart, knowing my needs, knowing my desires. knowing my hurts.  Thank you that I KNOW that You are always good.  There is no shadow of turning in You.  You never turn your back on me! You, the Almighty Creator, full of power, beauty, life and love, delight when I turn to You! Rejoice when I bring my cares to You! Receive me in my humble state!

~ God is bigger than my heart - 1 John 3:20

For if our heart condemn us , God is greater than our heart, and knoweth all things.

            Hallelujah!  I am not left with or stuck with what comes in my heart!!! My heart is not the truth! My feelings are not the truth!  He that is bigger, and better is greater than anything - whether in my feelings, heart, or head!!

~He has not left me as I was! - 1 Peter 1:23

Being born again, not of corruptible seed, but of incorruptible, by the Word of God, which lives and abides forever!        Ohh, AMEN!

~ He has even given me a hope and consolation for these times - Hebrews 6: 18-20

That by two immutable (unchangeable) things, in which it was impossible for God to lie, we might have a strong consolation, who have fled for refuge to lay hold upon the hope set before us: which hope we have as an anchor of the soul, both sure and steadfast, and which enters into that within the veil, where our forerunner has entered, even Jesus,...

       Oh yes, that hope is an anchor of my soul!  My eyes are on things incorruptible and everlasting!

~He is ready for me - for whatever I bring to Him. He is not surprised, shocked, or unprepared. Hebrews 4:16

Let us therefore come boldly unto the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy, and find grace to help in time of need.

Praise you Lord - the anchor of my soul, making a way for me to come to You, glad when I do, ready to show mercy and give grace.

NOW, these things can fill that hole to keep the rock of hormonal feelings from rolling back over me and crushing me like a writhing pathetic bug!  Different days, different situations, different hormones and different prayers, different scriptures, may show up; but this little process turns my heart from my poor pathetic state and helps me set my eyes on WHO really matters.

God is always good, and He always loves you!